catch up (:

long time no blog (: & even though no one reads these, well i can vent here, because its too early in the morning and no ones online (: Lol & i would twitter this XD no duh =] but theres a limit on how many words you can use on twitter, so yeah i need some venting time =) so where do i start......

F R I E N D S H I P <3 (:
okay, i knowwww that with great friendship comes even greaterr trust in someone. but see when one of your best friends tells you a secret, that is going to effect so many people, and hurt so many people like no other..wouldnt you tell the one person it would hurt the mostt? the person it would affect the same way it would effect you? and the good thing you do, trying to protect another friend, ends up hurting that same friend that told you the secret, so now..your the bad guy either way. just because you were trying to protect one friend, you ended up hurting another..no matter how good you try to be karma always has to bite you in the ass {sry for the languagee some of u may be too young} and so now that friend that trusted you, is never going to trust you again, is gonna keep trying to teach you a lesson until you learn what a horrible horrible person you are, even though you already know. and now you have noo idea if your ever gonna be the same with that friend again ;/ and you know the worst part about it? you know that heartbreaking like u wanna die feeling you get when someone breaks up with you? thats NOTHING. compared to hurting one of your best friends. one of the people you loved the most with your entire heart. knowing you hurt them that bad that they might never even be friends with you...when you've lost a part of your heart..? what are you supposed to do there? just keep on breathing? ha..tell me how and ill gladlyy follow it ;p

Y O U T U B E (:
i havee opened my girlzwanahavefun account yet again, one of the reasons being my best friend that i wrote about up there ;p and ive made about..3 videos in one day for that account, and i got like no comments on it out of 499 subscribers. its not like its that big of a deal, but the fact that im working between like 3-7 hours on a video that in the end, i think turns out absolutly amazing, and i get no comments on it..idk =p i mean i guess i do always get a lot of comments on that account, i just deleted it a lot, no one remembers it, but i mean still it would be nicee i had a million friends on that account, and its like no one remembers ;p oh well, ill figure something outt (:

E A S T E R (:
mmk just saying hope you guys have a greatt easterr XD its my favorite holiday everr, spring, warmth, CHOCOLATE!!! i wish my birthday was in spring in stead of summer ;p grr lol anywayy have fun todayy, even if your like 15 or whateverr go o ut and have funn cause i mean, ya never know, you might not be here tomorrow ;p hopefully we all are though!

mmk thats my ranting venting for the day (: blog..actually maybe ill twitter more laterr (:

love,nessa