ughh.

omg i am soo mad...or sad i dont even know. but all that i do know is that my best friend in the whole world isnt really my best friend in the whole world anymore. me and him used to talk all day everyday and talk about anything and everything and now...we're just drifting apart. and i need to figure something out so that we dont. cause we only have 2 years left together and then who knows if we'll ever see eachother again...and that just...plain sucks. I need to seriously turn my life around with him or else...i just know he likes me. everyone knows he likes me its just...his friends are getting in the way...or...his age or idk what anymore! all i know is i just cant forget about him, everything reminds me of him...and he's just....amazing. and i dont know how to hide that because...i just cant take not being with him. and its killing me not being able to do anything with him. so yea i had an entire hour alone with him and i never was able to get the stupid nerve to talk to him. ugh whatever im just...gonna figure something out with miranda and hunter...especially hunter because hunter is both of our friends and he's verry cool. so yea i kinda got a plan so we'll see...yea...i suppose...

updates

I'll make a lot of bg's and a few videos this weekend...if my computer decides to be good to me...idk how long ill be able to be online tomorrow cause these ppl are coming to visit and idk if ill have to kiss up or not lol yea ill probably make 2 more episodes of YSF and some random videos cause its been over a month since i just made like..music videos! lol and then a lot of bg's cause i have WAYYYY too many pictures saved, especially of ashley&Zanessa, so yea hmm...i was gonna do some stuff on SelGomezSite, but im not sure, I have to study a lottt...i have a bad feeling, im not doing so well with my grades so far this year, so i REALLLYY gotta get that up, especially before conferences which are soon. ugh i hate those. hmm...idk really what else there is to say...haha my friend cory is trying to fix me up with one of his freinds...i told him idk but he made me promise to think about it...so yea i gotta wait till like tuesday to tell him cause i have to talk to my bestestestestesttt friend everr about it, and then i have to talk to grant before i say anything for sure lol cuase im getting some okay feelings about some of these things lol idk so yea get ready for a lotta stuff coming this weekend xD
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